You think you know yourself, and why wouldn’t you think that? It is supposed to be one of the basics of existence (“I think therefore I am.”)
And yet, there are times when you react so illogically, so out of sync with who you’d like to be, that it seems that maybe, JUST maybe, that’s not so true.
Be careful with how certain you are about who you are. Your struggle—often with things that have been with you for decades, all the way back to your childhood—indicates that maybe, just maybe, you are more of a mystery to yourself than you think.
Slow down, and think; contemplate; wait upon the revelation of yourself.
When you receive it, act accordingly: make an amends, be grateful, take action, celebrate.