A part of you was left behind very early in your life: the part that never felt completely received. It is full of fears. Meanwhile, you grew up with many survival skills… But Jesus dwells in your fearful, never received self… Where you are most human, most yourself, weakest, there Jesus lives. (Nouwen, The Inner Voice of Love)

It’s always challenging to remember that the path to healing is not to neglect your wounds and your past; it is not to reject or separate the ugly things that you’ve done. The path to healing is about integrating and accepting your past—even (especially?) the ugly parts of it—because if you had not have done what you did, you would not be where you are.

Everything in your past has brought you to this moment, which is full of possibility and pregnant with potential and love and peace.